The most homework I've done my whole life. No joke. Enough of my complaining, now's the time to focus on academics and short term goals. Looking at my schedule, I have to settle down some time for clubs, program visits, leisure time, job seeking/applying, and other important struggles. Classes are becoming more difficult. Papers were being passed around for extra lessons on tutoring and I thought how it would all go if I did. Spending one or two hours may be beneficial to my learning, but I felt like I would miss out many things. I try to go to the gym every other day, but I mostly become a lazy person and skip out.
Its been tough and I want it to be easy. "If you think life is easy, you're doing it wrong." When I read this quote somewhere, I reflected my life, looking back in the past about the things I've done that were easy. I thought that the easy things were only satisfying for two seconds. The harder things I've done and accomplished were much more satisfying. There were times where I thought the harder things I did and dropped them were disdainful. But I regret those decisions. They have affected me in many ways. Future-wise, they impacted everything I had the future.
After the fall quarter, I've realized my level of academic work. I consider it the same as high school, which no one wants. I want to see my self improve. I need to the earn the approval of improvement. Adult life too has taken the toll. Money is a big problem. Sometimes, I think I spend too much on useless things. I saved some money in some way or another. Paying for housing....Gosh, that's what got me the most.
Well, I want end this post with a positive message. Do well in everything that you can do exceptionally well. If what you see is useless in your eyes is not useless in everyone else's. Someone in this world appreciates what you do and where you go. Even if they don't tell you they do, they mean they do in their hearts.
